Wishes

I wish that
you missed me
I missed you
I could eat nachos guilt free
I had my green sweater back
That I hadn'y given away the green sweater
That I was on a plane
That I loved someone
That you loved me
That I had endless coffee
That cigarettes were good for me
That you hadn't left town so suddenly
That I said goodbye
That I remained composed
That Lola wouldn't claw me so much.
That I was okay
That there were no more pills
That we were still lying in my bed
That I didn't live on the attic floor
That I had blonde hair
That I was anywhere else
That I could run a little faster
That I could make you smile one more time.